Today was a very interesting day when it came to church services. This morning whenever I was in service, the transitional pastor was speaking (our pastor retired), and at the end he was talking about not losing sight of your faith, and holding on even through the hard time. Then tonight, this other guy did the same thing. It was amazing how God made both the sermons fit together perfectly. Tonight he was talking about how we all go through struggles and how we cant lose sight of out faith because that will make it so much harder for us to get through it. And he talked about how we sometimes feel like God is not there for us and that we cannot feel him working in our lives even though he is. It was amazing. It really hit me. The guy that talked tonight (I dont know his name by the way haha), also had everyone bow their heads and close their eyes and asked who is going through a hard time in their life right now or is struggling with something to raise their hand, so I did, because I almost walked away from my faith earlier this week because of everything that had been going on. It was exactly what I needed to hear today, and it made me almost cry.
Now it's time to go write letters to friends :) goodnight all!
~Hannah
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
I've come really close to just giving up on my faith these last few days. Im not going to go into detail, but there has been a bunch of stuff going on with my family the last two weeks, that has really hit me hard.
I just kind of feel like that whenever I start to get better, and when I start to not be depressed anymore (I used to have depression), something attacks me and I fall down and dont know how to get back up for along time.
On Wednesday night I went to an awesome church in my area that I am thinking about switching to. What the pastor said really helped me. I dont even really remember what he was talking about that really hit me, but something did and it made me realize that God is there, and that even though I cant see what he's doing right now, I know that he does everything for good. Then last night at a bible study I go to, we talked about attitudes and how we need to have good attitudes through everything.
Man has God been teaching me some lessons! Im so tired of working for everything, im tired of trying to please everyone around me, and helping everyone else when I really need to be helping myself right now. I let people talk to me about their problems, and I take their burdens onto myself. When in reality, right now, I cant really even handle my own burdens right now.
I was hoping my trials as a teen would be over. My dad lost his job 3 years ago, a bunch of stuff after that started happening, and I became extremely depressed. It took me over a year and a half to get over it on my own, and even after that I struggled with it a lot. Just about a year ago I started to get better from it, and now I feel like Im right back where I started. I need God right now more than I have in a long time. I need him to show himself to me, to reassure to me that he is here and he is real. I need him to show me that everything will be alright in the end. It might be a tough journey, but in the end, all will be alright.
I also need to figure out what I am going to do for college. I know Im going to go to the community college for a while, but I dont know after that. I want to go to Oklahoma to be closer to my niece and nephew, go to Tennessee just because I love it there, or San Diego because it is the most beautiful place I have ever been in my entire life, and people there need to know christ so badly! But I dont know where God wants me to go. Im thinking about going to a secular college and going to seminary after that, but I dont know what to major or anything.
I have been having a lot of problems with my hip and my ankle the last year. I got my third shot in my hip for something called Prolo Therapy where it inflames the joint causing it to heal. I also got my first session in my ankle, and he gave me two shots in that. So I've been in a lot of pain these last few days. I could use some prayer right now. Just for my family and that my hip and ankle heal well. Tomorrow is my nieces birthday and it's almost midnight so I need to head to bed.
~Hannah
I just kind of feel like that whenever I start to get better, and when I start to not be depressed anymore (I used to have depression), something attacks me and I fall down and dont know how to get back up for along time.
On Wednesday night I went to an awesome church in my area that I am thinking about switching to. What the pastor said really helped me. I dont even really remember what he was talking about that really hit me, but something did and it made me realize that God is there, and that even though I cant see what he's doing right now, I know that he does everything for good. Then last night at a bible study I go to, we talked about attitudes and how we need to have good attitudes through everything.
Man has God been teaching me some lessons! Im so tired of working for everything, im tired of trying to please everyone around me, and helping everyone else when I really need to be helping myself right now. I let people talk to me about their problems, and I take their burdens onto myself. When in reality, right now, I cant really even handle my own burdens right now.
I was hoping my trials as a teen would be over. My dad lost his job 3 years ago, a bunch of stuff after that started happening, and I became extremely depressed. It took me over a year and a half to get over it on my own, and even after that I struggled with it a lot. Just about a year ago I started to get better from it, and now I feel like Im right back where I started. I need God right now more than I have in a long time. I need him to show himself to me, to reassure to me that he is here and he is real. I need him to show me that everything will be alright in the end. It might be a tough journey, but in the end, all will be alright.
I also need to figure out what I am going to do for college. I know Im going to go to the community college for a while, but I dont know after that. I want to go to Oklahoma to be closer to my niece and nephew, go to Tennessee just because I love it there, or San Diego because it is the most beautiful place I have ever been in my entire life, and people there need to know christ so badly! But I dont know where God wants me to go. Im thinking about going to a secular college and going to seminary after that, but I dont know what to major or anything.
I have been having a lot of problems with my hip and my ankle the last year. I got my third shot in my hip for something called Prolo Therapy where it inflames the joint causing it to heal. I also got my first session in my ankle, and he gave me two shots in that. So I've been in a lot of pain these last few days. I could use some prayer right now. Just for my family and that my hip and ankle heal well. Tomorrow is my nieces birthday and it's almost midnight so I need to head to bed.
~Hannah
Friday, September 11, 2009
My thoughts on God and Life; Intoduction
Some of you may have read my mom's blog http://www.iwilllearntofly.blogspot.com/
Which that is about my families struggles the last 3 years with my dad's job loss in 2006.
My name is Hannah. I am a 16 year old, senior in highschool, who loves God with all her heart, and just wants to honor Him in everything she does.
Let me give you a bit of my background and why I decided to start this Blog.
I've grown up in a christian family. It's all I've ever known. I accepted Christ when I was 7, and have grown in my faith ever since. There has been really hard times (2006 my dad lost his job) where I have started to walk away, but through those hard times I have realized I can't get through anything without Christ.
In the summer of 2005, I felt like God had called me into youth ministry. I have pursued that ever since. As I am now. Although, I know a little more clearly (but a little less clearly at the same time) as to what exactly he wants me to do. More on that later...
I'll get ideas of something to write about to talk to my youth group about. I'll post it on facebook instead of asking my youth pastor if I may speak. You see, I hate speaking in front of groups. It's just scares me. But I am learning to be more comfortable with it. I am more comfortable being on stage, with my guitar in hand and a mic in front of me. Why? I have no idea. But as the famous quote goes "God does not call the qualified, he qualifies the called." I know that if it is what God wants me to do, he will find a way for me to do it. So I am writing this blog so I can put my thoughts on what God has been teaching me lately, and how I am getting through struggles in life. Because I feel like facebook isn't a big enough website to really get out how I feel about God, and life.
Right now, God is taking all my plans, tearing them up, and throwing them away. My plans were to graduate in the spring, go to the community college to get my gen. ed. out of the way, then go to Cedarville University in Ohio (amazing college!), and study youth ministry with a minor in music.
I went on a two month mission trip this summer to San Diego, I'll probably write a few blogs about that in the next coming months. Once I got home, God started changing EVERYTHING. Now I have no idea what I am doing. It's scary, but exciting at the same time! Im letting God take me wherever he wants me to go. Which will be hard to do, but I know it'll all be worth it in the end!
I hope you guys continue to read my blog, and that it encourages you in everything you do.
I'll be posting again here in the next few days, of something I have written recently about quiet times, why I feel they're important, and how to have a successful quiet time. Hope you guys enjoy!
~Hannah
Which that is about my families struggles the last 3 years with my dad's job loss in 2006.
My name is Hannah. I am a 16 year old, senior in highschool, who loves God with all her heart, and just wants to honor Him in everything she does.
Let me give you a bit of my background and why I decided to start this Blog.
I've grown up in a christian family. It's all I've ever known. I accepted Christ when I was 7, and have grown in my faith ever since. There has been really hard times (2006 my dad lost his job) where I have started to walk away, but through those hard times I have realized I can't get through anything without Christ.
In the summer of 2005, I felt like God had called me into youth ministry. I have pursued that ever since. As I am now. Although, I know a little more clearly (but a little less clearly at the same time) as to what exactly he wants me to do. More on that later...
I'll get ideas of something to write about to talk to my youth group about. I'll post it on facebook instead of asking my youth pastor if I may speak. You see, I hate speaking in front of groups. It's just scares me. But I am learning to be more comfortable with it. I am more comfortable being on stage, with my guitar in hand and a mic in front of me. Why? I have no idea. But as the famous quote goes "God does not call the qualified, he qualifies the called." I know that if it is what God wants me to do, he will find a way for me to do it. So I am writing this blog so I can put my thoughts on what God has been teaching me lately, and how I am getting through struggles in life. Because I feel like facebook isn't a big enough website to really get out how I feel about God, and life.
Right now, God is taking all my plans, tearing them up, and throwing them away. My plans were to graduate in the spring, go to the community college to get my gen. ed. out of the way, then go to Cedarville University in Ohio (amazing college!), and study youth ministry with a minor in music.
I went on a two month mission trip this summer to San Diego, I'll probably write a few blogs about that in the next coming months. Once I got home, God started changing EVERYTHING. Now I have no idea what I am doing. It's scary, but exciting at the same time! Im letting God take me wherever he wants me to go. Which will be hard to do, but I know it'll all be worth it in the end!
I hope you guys continue to read my blog, and that it encourages you in everything you do.
I'll be posting again here in the next few days, of something I have written recently about quiet times, why I feel they're important, and how to have a successful quiet time. Hope you guys enjoy!
~Hannah
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