My prayer tonight

My prayer tonight is this. It's a part of a Psalm that Jon Foreman (from Switchfoot) has taken and put into a song.

Have mercy on me, oh God
According to Your unfailing love
According to Your great compassion
Blot out my transgressions

Create in me a clean heart, oh God
Restore in me the joy of Your salvation

The sacrifices of our God are a broken and a contrite heart
Against You and You alone have I sinned

Would You create in me a clean heart, oh God
Restore in me the joy of my salvation

Wash me white as snow
And I will be made whole
Wash me white as snow
And I will be made whole


 I fell on my face this evening, and this is what I prayed, and am still praying, and will continue to pray. Its asking God to restore me. I want God to restore me.
"God I want you to create in me a clean heart. I want you to make my heart pure, for you to wash me white as snow. So I can be whole again. Would you please blot out my transgressions, everything I've done against you. Please, God, restore in me the joy of my salvation I once had so long ago. God, I'm so tired of filling my life with things other than you. I'm tired of having this bitterness. God, I need you to take all of this away. I need you to restore in me how I once was. God, I want you to be my satisfaction. Not all these worldly things, that will pass away, but you! You will never pass away. Please God I need your hand in mine. I need you to guide me every day I live. Help me to live, love and share you. To live for you, do everything in my power to honor you, and learn more about you. To love you. God I have all these god's in my life, that is not the true God. Help me not to love these god's, but to love THE God. To Share you God. I want to help further your kingdom. Use me in whatever way you choose. I'm willing to go. Wash me white as snow God, so I can be made whole. Would you please oh God create in me a clean heart, and restore in me the joy of YOUR salvation, that you GIVE to me. I didnt do anything to earn your love and salvation, but you gave it to me anyway. Thank you Father"