My life it seems is constantly falling apart now. But after turning off my phone, computer, and music and just spending an hour just praying, reading the bible, and worshiping God today, I realize that he knows what best, and sometimes it takes us to get to the very bottom before things get better.
I've been struggling with a lot of stuff lately with my family and friends. But I realize now that if it's God's will, then there is some type of good in it, and it will be worth it in the end.
I've also realized that I need to stop hating so much. God loves us so much that he let his son die for us. Why is it so hard for me to love some people because they are difficult? I dont know, I just dont think I've had my eyes set on the right things lately, and i really need to turn my focus to God because of that.
Things have been really hard lately, but Im going to try to handle them to the best of my ability.

Here's what my prayer was today in my quiet time and will be for a long time "father, daddy, abba, savior, this is really hard for me to take an hour and just focus completely on you. Especially right now with everything going on. I've been not wanting to give everything over to you father because it seems like every time I do so, everything gets worse. But now I realize that I wasn't fully relying on you father. I was letting other things be the comfort that I really need you to be. Father please show me what you want me to do, and show me what you want me to read. I want to give this all over to you father, and I want you to be in control of my life. Speak to me in this time. Help me to be completely focused on you through all of this"

God is an amazing God, and he will help you through whatever tough time you're having. This is the hardest time in my life right now. There was a time three years ago when I thought that was the hardest time in my life, but i was wrong. That was nothing compared to everything right now. Please be praying for me, as I am trying to seek God through this trial. It is amazing what God can do, and i know he will bring me through this and I that i will be a stronger person because of it.

In Christ,
Hannah